you guys rock.. it's just what I need to hear. For years I shared only in generalities relating my issues to the steps.. because I didn't really feel comfortable getting into details and I didn't feel the need to get into details. But the last 2 years have been quite stressful for me and I've found it more difficult to sit in meetings and talk. I started going to a womens meeting and that is where I shared more about my relationship issues. I felt pretty comfortable at first and then a few people made comments and I just stopped going.

That's probably not the only reason I stopped going.. I can relate to Roadie's comment about boredom. I guess I am a bit bored. Boredom, stress , anxiety and isolation are not a good mix for an addict. It's like I'm creating the perfect storm for relapse.

The only thing holding me back from using is that I still have the ability to think it through before I act on an impulse. So far... the end result is that it's more work and will make things worse if I use. I forget that using is a fulltime job. And a ****** fulltime job.

Thanks for all your support...got get back to my real fulltime job