I do something similiar. If I am flipping through the TV channels and see that a rape is going to happen, my gut reaction is to flip to a different station immediately - like I have to save my own life. But then I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS go right back and watch. I feel like I can't stop myself. I don't know why I do it. It upsets me terribly. I get so disturbed. I hate it.

to you. What did you therapist say about these behaviors?