i get a bit annoyed if i think about my T's private life too much. i don't really know much about his family or anything but the picture of him being all happy and having a great life because it makes me feel a bit pathetic. and knowing that i share so much of how sad my life is, it makes me think he must pity me. which i hate. so i try not to dwell on it. maybe your T being holidays has raised some of those feelings?