Thx Kiki.....yes, I am a bit annoyed. I know she hasnt always had a great but just knowing all the weird family stuff I'm dealing with right now and she's the first person in my life I feel like I'm letting in....and to be thinking about how happy and close she is with her family just sucks. makes me feel pathetic. This is the lowest ive felt in a long time. and I don't know of I should tell her about it.