Just wondering if anyone ever has the experience of feeling sad once T's been away and comes back. If so, do you know why that happens?

I often get anxious before T leaves for a vacation. I'm actually a tiny bit of a mess and pick fights with my partner, etc. I probably do that to create some distance because I have feelings about T leaving and don't quite understand them or know what to do with them. Maybe it's feeling abandoned, or maybe not...I'm not sure.

Anyway, even though I get anxious, I'm usually OK by the time she actually leaves town, and I'm generally OK the whole time she's away. I mean, it's hard sometimes, but I can usually distract myself well enough.

Lately, however, I've noticed that once T comes home and I've seen her for the first time, I get really sad. I have no idea why, and it feels like it doesn't make any sense. So I'm just trying to understand. Does that happen to any of you? If so, do you know why? And does anything change or help it?

Thanks for any insight you can share.