How can one "gauge" how they feel about someone during 1 sexual encounter? Was his "love" for me not more than sex?

I feel raped, if that is the case.


I want him so much, and everyone around me is telling me he isn't a man and he is no good. But the man I married isn't like this. I know he is still there somewhere.

I just don't understand what I did to deserve him leaving me alone with our unborn child. So he doesn't love me, what makes me so unlovable...?