I'm sorry you're going through this. i am certainly relating as i just last week started talking to my t about the same kinda thing and she said that it was abuse and i wasn't really wanting to hear that and started making my usual excuses for my dad ('well he always apologized later' etc) and she re-emphasized that it was abuse and that is sure hard to hear isn't it we will be talking about it again tomorrow and the anger that I have been repressing or whatever all these years I just turned 50 this month. it's sending me into a tailspin and we've barely begun talking about it. you're very brave. i am so scared of talking about my anger. more scared of my anger than anything else right now. weird. hugs to you. this is so hard.