((((Ohm)))) have you spoken with your md/pdoc about the meds and that they are not helping? Have you spoken with your T and expressed to him/her that the time together is not helping? That you feel you aren't progressing?

Have you been able to speak with your T about all the things you have shared here? It is important. You...are important.

Your concerns, thoughts, feelings are certainly valid. Especially if you have never felt any sort of relief. Can you recall a time...any time at all... where you did feel a little ok? A time where you did feel the fog of depression lifting? Felt hopeful about any thing - big or small?

You know...I hear you. Perhaps you aren't meant to live "The Dream" that we have been spoon-fed practically since birth! Perhaps you are meant to march to the beat of another (your own ) drummer!

But even with that reality, you shouldnt have to suffer. Or feel doomed or hopeless. There is actually freedom and liberation in accepting who you are and embracing that. Honoring you.

I urge you to pursue this train of thought with your team. It can only help you...the only way to really get to your truth is to be completely open and honest and meet it head on!

I hope you will give it a go and continue to post and let us know how you are doing.

Kind regards,
Rose