im sorry to hear about this katie. I have a situatiation similar to you and its not fun not knowing. The repressed memories are the worst part of recovery and chances are your not going to know for sure until a very long time when it the flash backs come back randomly.

When i was told by mom im useless i should just go to jail i just felt like digging my own grave right their. I only remember my mom destroying my confidence but i dont remeber my childhood i just know im terrified if people are behind me.

The only usefull advice i can really give is when the flashbacks hit you and your reliving the moment remember that moment doesnt exist anymore its already passed