I am in the same ocean. I just can't get close to people. I have acquaintances at work, I have my therapist, I wave at my neighbors, I send Christmas cards to my family, so I guess I am not alone.

I have been so frustrated in the last month because one of my class assignments require an "interaction" with a willing friend. There is someone at my work who will do it with me but we don't always have time. Also there is a family member who will do it with me.

We are supposed to get different people each week. I feel like such a freak because I don't have a close friend like that. I don't even like asking to two people I have mentioned because it seems so intrusive to ask for their help. I feel discriminated against because I am single and alone. I hate to go out of the house.

It makes me want to give up, really. As I said, I do have my T. We will talk today. He is so good. But I can't seem to feel close to him either. It feels like I am yelling across the room to him, but there is a super loud band playing, so I can't hear what he is saying and he can't hear what I am saying either.

I don't think this is much help for you. I guess I am just saying I have the same problem and it isn't easy.

Rose