I miss getting high as well. I get jealous of others who can enjoy the experience of a drink. But then I remember.. they are not alcoholics or addicts... I am.

I really try to examine why I want to get high. For me the only thing that works is to play the tape all the way to the end. Meaning.. I imagine that I do take a drink or use and what would truly happen. I know I will likely enjoy the 1st few minutes, hours or whatever and then it tends to get ugly from there.

But I keep the tape rolling and really try to get to the end. What will my reality be if I choose to take a drink/drug? I lose control after the 1st drink and it goes downhill pretty fast. So.. that helps me to get things in perspective a little bit.

I also try to keep myself occupied with healthy alternatives. That helps to keep the impulsive using thoughts to a minimum.

And talking about those urges with people also helps. The more people know, the better. That's my safety net. They know I'm and addict and it helps me to not act on those urges. They would know immediately if I started using agian.. and I remember what a pain in the *** all the lying and living a double life can be. As I said before.. using is like a ****** fulltime job. So much work just to keep that life going.

peace and love
kare