Pretty much. Before when we would argue i would get mad and blow up on him. I mean dont get me wrong, we hardly ever argue, its about two times a year but typically it starts because of this. I have been working on it and the last time was in january and before that was last summer, each time i get better at holding it in and realizing the issue lies within me and my difficulty trusting men and my insecurity problems. But he can read me like a book. Just because i dont go off on him he can tell if im upset and could tell yesterday i was upset, but i tried not to let him know because i know its me why im having these problems. But after a few minutes of saying "i know youre upset, why are you upset" i just told him, but i told him its not him, its me and my issues but he doesnt understand how much my past still effects me. Literally until i met him i was in unstable relationships non stop in every aspect. Cheated on and SAd by many exs, was in an unstable home so i ran away with an abusive man. Only after i left the abusive environment was i able to see just how unstable and abusive my life was, and thats when i met my fiance. I never really thought normal caring men existed before i met him, but he doesnt get any of it