wow rain. we missed you! My T asked where you were, I haven't mentioned your name in so long! So I have become so attached to my T, due to various circumstances, that it just broke my heart to hear you ask for an earlier session and not be able to get it why does she still feel this way? how can she feel better? it took me a long long time to feel better, and I had to get rid of the bad people in my life. can you get your H to hold you? for therapeutic reasons, of course! preferably your back to his front, his arms wrapped over yours or however is comfortable. this position, which is one of my favorites with T, was also recommended in the book, The Emotionally Absent Mother. (She recommends pillows as needed to eliminate unwanted body contact.) I wish you could have gotten a hug like this after you talked to T today, and after your accident.