I am depressed again. Or simply exhausted. Or both.
I was doing really well with T1 and then there was that break with no T for a few weeks. I was doing everything i could do to keep it together. Worst part was that I was triggered horribly and T1 just wasnt available so i tried to manage on my own. I have been lretty much been warding off those awful low feelings and trying to stay positive. But i cant fight it anymore. Too many triggering events have happened since that initial one and i have slupped.

I try to focus on the positives, tell myself other people's bs just doesnt matter, eat those grapes, but i am tired.

I am taking a personal day today to try to sleep, rest, rejuv and try to get myself together together enough so I can just show up...suit up and show up. I woke up so miserable this morning thoughand the thought of just getting ready, driving the hour and half + to work seemed too overwhelming.

I am feeling sad and exhausted. No motivation at all. And under that i am feeling incredible resentment and frustration and helf hatred.

I am so so tired. I thought i beat this with T1. Yet, sadly, here I am. Again.

Thanks for reading xx