About 3 months ago, I had what they think is a bi-polar mania episode. It was my first one ever, I didnt even realize i was acting strange. I was having so many odd thoughts, like i was on a mission to save the world from judgement day, like i was on a mission from God, then i started thinking i was working for the CIA, and all types of stuff. My whole personality changed. Then i started being mean to everyone. I started cussing everyone out accusing them of bad things etc. I went to the police alot. I look back, i was acting so strange.nothing how i usually act, and this lasted for weeks.

It completely ruined my life, I got my kid taken away, lost my job, ran up all my credit cards, have about 10 creditors calling me a day. I even got criminal charges, that are exaggerated alot.

I have now been in a severe depression, because now everyone thinks im this mean person. I lost everything. I dont even like going in public, because i see all the happy kids, and knowing how much of a good mom i was before this episode happened, makes me so sick to know my kid got taken away.

I never did drugs in my life, I am a good, honest loving person............and for this to happen and completely ruin my life, I just dont know what to. I'm so scared of going to jail, which im pretty sure is going to happen, and im living off my savings right now, which is almost gone. In a few weeks i will have no money to my name, not be able to pay any bills, and in the mean time my phone is ringing off the hook everyday from credit cards and dr bills.

It makes me so sick, because i always paid everything on time, had a decent savings for me and my sons future, had a great job and credit. Now EVERYTHING has been ruined, and i have no family that would even take me in if i were to be homeless. I have no friends now, nothing, my health is deteriating, I have no insurance.

It just drives me crazy how this could happen, I keep trying to understand why it happened, when i had no history of mental illness, and for this to all the sudden happen, and at the time i didnt even realize i was acting strange. It lasted for weeks. I went to mental hospitals, they didnt really help me, when they released me i was still acting the same.the meds made it worse, thats when i started acting mean and having ad night mares.

I keep searching online for someone i can relate to, but i cant find anyone that had an episode severe enough for all this bad stuff to happen, especially CPS getting involved.

I was always a nice sweet girl, who stayed away from criminal activity etc, and now for me to have criminal charges on top of everything, is so scary.
I'm so scared i wont get my kid back, since i cant even find a job and might be homeless or in jail, which ever happens first.

This is so hard to handle, i can barely function..........NEVER in my life would i expect this to happen.

On top of that theres alot of people that want to beat the crap outta me, for accusing them of things while i was acting manic, i was posting stuff on FB acting like a nut...and im so not the type to fight, so this stuff is just scaring me so much. I caused so much trouble and didnt even realize it, until i snapped back to reality.