This will be long, but I will put the moral of the story at the beginning so everyone can perhaps answer- even if they don't want to read my novel here.

I have a paralyzing, unnatural, completely awful fear of police. Actually, of anyone who could "get me in trouble." IRS, Government...just the word courthouse makes me want to puke. Literally. I saw someone get arrested not too long ago (this phobia started wayyy before that) and when I got home, and for about 4 hours after I was dry heaving, shaking and having a HARD time breathing. I thought they were going to come here and arrest me JUST BECAUSE I saw them arrest someone else. What if the other people around lied and said I did something?

Let me be perfectly clear... I have never even had as much as a driving ticket. No law trouble at all. I never even spoke to a cop until I was probably 15 or so. No family problems with cops. My husband was arrested once, but the cop was so very nice and he was out the next day- could this cause it?

I'm also even afraid to write this post as I think that the cops might see this and think I did something wrong and track me and try to arrest me for something.

I need to know someone else feels like this. I need to know I'm not alone.

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I have been DX with Generalized Anxiety, OCD, ADHD, Social Anxiety Disorder & panic. I have brought up the possibility of being BPD a few times to my therapist(and I do have the symptoms of BPD - I CAN CERTAINLY go into more details if asked!....) and she says that I don't seem BPD to her. She also says Im not bipolar, BUT that would be the next thing we look at if the meds don't work for my GAD. I was on remeron but decided to quit it so now the only thing I'm on is BusPar 2x/day. I had been on depakote (it made me not care about anything, really) (sp?) once before bc one psychologist thought I MIGHT be bipolar (but personally my moods go too fast for that- but less so since i quit the rememron.....) I also get really irritated really easy. I rarely get that "glimpse" of a calm and serene life.