((((((((((((((Elizabeth)))))))))))))) I understand that. I'm sorry T is unavailable. I'm so glad you have support with husband while T is gone.

I know for me, it feels unsafe to deal with things on my own sometimes too when that happens. Does journaling help you during those times? Sometimes things come out when I journal during that time (although not always).

What if you were to get yourself into a safe place (bedroom, etc) and get out a variety of good coping things (drawing pads, paper, pencils, crayons, stuffed animals, etc) and just allow your brain to do what it needs to? If husband knows what is going on, he can maybe make sure you don't leave the house or do anything dangerous?

Hope things get calmer for you soon.