I am just so sad tonight. I have been up and down and up and down all day. And there doesn't really seem to be any explanation to it. I did get a lot of chores done while I was up but now my husband wants to have a quiet evening in front of the TV. I'm restless, have been the last couple of nights. Can't find anything to do that feels right so I end up sitting at the dining room table by myself coloring. Even that is losing it's appeal. I am actually sitting at this computer with tears running down my face while my husband is in the other room. I don't want him to see me like this, he doedn't really understand the whole depression side of me. I have taken my meds like I am supposed to, they don't seem to have really helped. I could take a xanax to get away from this and sleep but that would just %#@&#! the hubby off. I can never handle it when he is mad, he is not abusive or anything, just get loud and it always makes me cry which makes it worse until I run away to the bedroom and cry myself to sleep. It would all be so much easier if he could be a little empathetic or understanding. Maybe that is what is really getting me down, I don't know. I'm just sad, not as bad as it can get but I feel like I am having to work too hard to keep it from getting bad. It is just too exhausting.