((((Kiddo)))) your post really resonated with me because I have fears like this as well. I was Dx with many of the same things. I do agree with Mike in that perhaps it has to do with the fear of not having any control and feeling as if you are at the mercy of someone. And they have power and control over you and there is nothing you can do about it.

Did you experience a trauma in your past that could perhaps contribute to these fears that you have?

For me, surviving a couple of major traumas, I learned my fears are in direct relation to those horrible incidents.

You are not alone. Feel free to pm me anytime if you want to chat further.

Kind regards
Rose