So I made it thru the day. I rested and mostly slept. I still feel this enormous weight on me and feeling that i am slowly dying inside. My brother is in town for only 2 days but i just cannot see him. He doesn't believe in depression. And i just dont have the energy to fake that i am fine for him.

I hope that when I wake up tomorrow morning that I have at least the energy and motivation to get up and out the door. For that excrutiatingly slow drive on the 405.

Another one of the horrible things about depression is that i have no appetite at all. Which of course does nothing to help the energy issue...

Hoping tomorrow will be a better day. This cant last forever...