I'm pansexual, I can find anybody attractive of all ages, sizes, orientations, races, beliefs, etc. I've never told anybody this--not even my bff or my T--but there are some people that I have feelings for who are much older and have a fatherly quality to them. Like this guy who is about 40+ my senior that I've known for 8 years. My feelings have never changed, though now that I'm older I understand boundaries and age differences and know it would never work (I don't think he has any idea about my feelings).

I'm finding this really hard to talk about. I wouldn't say I am attracted to them physically, it's just that fatherly quality that I like. And there is nothing wrong with the relationship between me and my dad, we're really close and he's a great dad so it's not like I have no father figure in my life.

Does anyone know why this is? Could this be a hidden want for a marraige or long term relationship?