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Originally Posted by Edge11
...9 months ago...
...9 months ago on a day like any other day in the life of an active alcoholic...I started the day in the usual way...Chugging vodka on the way to work...For weeks prior to this day I had been drinking almost around the clock...I needed it to function...About 10:00 AM I ran out of vodka and needed to get some more and I did...By lunch time I was obviously drunk...At least thats what my boss told me...I was sent home...On the way home I continued to drink...Overwhelmed by fear I pulled into the Mall parking lot...continuing to drink my vodka...I decided to call a close AA friend and tell him I was dying...I was...My body couldn't handle the abuse much longer...The thought of drinking myself to ...  |
hi edge  sounds like you had an "angel" watching over you at the detox...the nurse. i also believe there are no coincidencies. you called and asked for help even when you didn't think about it.
your post reminded me of when i just wanted to end it all. NO hope just a blak void. and instead i reached out for help. been sober ever since. it was truly not of my conscious doing. i think it was a miracle and sounds like you had one too. thanks for sharing your experience. i'm so glad that instead of self-destruction you sought help that day and are here.
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