yeah full on...yep it's like having 1000 golf balls and no golf club to hit even one of them properly so feel like jumping in thrashing arms and legs but thats no good!

...I wanna walk 100 dogs with 10 leads I must be crazy?

why do I count things all the time and read words backwards and forwards sdrawrof dna sdrawkcab?

I forget to breathe ALOT... motionless I sit sometimes but it's an illusion I am in ADD stasis and run a delirious blank and it's just the engine in my head misfired briefly and panicked back into motion gotta keep searching put these thoughts somewhere at least most everything is not yet quite finished!

there are millions of alternatives to incredibly everything and I am impossible to be around my predictive text style attempts at conversations surely is not appreciated...just maintain eye contact thats all I gotta do right?...right?...ooops drifted again and it's not uncomfortable anymore cos that probability was seconds or light years ago but hell I'm nervous anyway