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Originally Posted by rgb11
I'm just learning about bipolar. I'm not bipolar. But maybe that means I can answer your question well. I just broke up with my boyfriend who is bipolar and am just coming to terms with his illness and wondering if I would ever take him back.
Reading your story is heartbreaking and you sound completley remorseful and confused about your own behavior. It really sounds like you snapped out of something.
For someone who is not bipolar, just reading your story makes it all seem more 'real'
If I were your family member and I read what you wrote I would believe you and want to help you. My suggestion would be to print what you have written, or email your friends or loved ones the link (people you trust only) and let them see this. I think your honesty and candor now is probably the best way to let people know you want to make amends.
It can be very hard for outsiders to understand all of this. Your post makes it understandable on some level.
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Thanks, yes its so hard for me to understand. How i am always a nice pleasant person, then all the sudden i just starting acting crazy. It's so embarrassing, the whole community knows about this, and act like they are afraid to have anything to do with me now. Its so hard to deal with, because the real me is so nice and easy-going, now my whole name is ruined, (reputation, criminally, financially, getting my son taken away, just everything) I worked my whole life for my son's future. I made sure i had a certain amount of money saved before i got pregnant.
I was so responsible....and now having to live like this really makes me sick, I am so depressed how my life got destroyed. Scared to death about going to jail. I can barely function with all these worries.
I dont have much family at all, they all passed away (even my mom and brother)..all i have is my dad, and his health is not good...he has heart problems, and is about to loose his job because of it....So im also scared for his future.