I have an aplointment with t tomorrow, im going to bring it up with him and see if we can come up with a game plan. I tried a little to explain it to my fiance and slowly hes starting to understand. Back from august to november i kept getting the back burner feeling, all the time, many times every day. Where i felt like things were further away, i heard myself talking and saw myself moving but wasnt controlling it at all. I also had a few blackouts. My t says its co concious and of course not the black outs. But during that time i wasnt seeing a t. I thought they were something in my brain since i had that one seizure. I had brain tests saw a neuro, my brain was fine. Well i still get the back burner feeling, and told t, thats when he explained co consciousness. Thinks im co con with some parts but not all. Back when i didnt know i was telling my fiance after doing some grounding and snapping back, i would go lay down. So i was explaining to him that t believes its dissociation and he started to understand that because he saw it happen a lot. Same thing with the blackouts ive been having, i explained its another dissociation thing and he started to get it. Only thing left to explain is parts, still the hardest for me to understand, but perhaps t can help with this.
His add does get in the way sometimes of him listening. So i keep my explinations short and we laugh about it. When i notice hes drifting from the conversation i laugh and say "hey, add!" And he laughs and comes back into the conversation but im the same in a different aspect. I have tunnel thinking. When i think or watch something, thats all i see, nothing else exists around me and he asks me questions sitting right next to me and i have no clue what hes said or that hes said anything at all. He laughs. We are an odd couple. Often he will ask me something but im in my own world and have no clue what he said but can tell hes waiting for an answer so i guess and he just looks at me funny, i answer wrong and he has to repeat his question. We laugh at each other, im a "space cadet" and hes add, its funny. Hopefully t doesnt have a problem explaining it to two people with concentration troubles