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Originally Posted by JohnBarrowman
I have a finacee.. And i find it really hard when they want to go out or anything.. I used to have mental break downs. Now im not that bad but it still really make me anxiouse. 
Is there anything you find you can do tht can keep you settled? r do you litrlly stay on your own compleatly.. Im half liek that i ahve my partner and perants and thats it. |
okay I will tell you what I do John...
what I do is I get up from my chair the chair I have many bad thoughts in when I'm in it....or I move away from the window I look out of feeling like a mess and I go and I go walk through my place to the bathroom and I look in the mirror at 'me'
I rinse a face towel in really hot water and I bury my face in it and I then look at myself again and I look back at me like I know I need to be looked at....
I don't know exactly how it happens but I get some re-assurance from myself because yes I am pretty much alone very much most of the time.
I get a reflection of myself and because I don't want to pity me I guess which is way too easy to do when not looking at myself I sure get a bit of credibility or something for at least giving it a shot.
if I can stare at me for a few seconds I can get through an hour or so when I am at my worst buddy...