I really feel for you. I am going through the same thing. I feel many of the things that you feel about yourself. I have been struggling with sleep since 2000, and non stop for a year now. I get 3-6 hours a night, more often 3 hours, and this is with Xanax , 2 different muscle relaxers , melatonin, benadryl, and lunesta. My T says chemicals are not the answer. He changed his mind for a brief time and consulted a psychiatrist about putting me on an anti depressant, but then said medication wouldn't help me, that lack of sleep was just a symptom. I know that is true, but I am getting more and more run down, and am afraid I will lose my job.

Anyway, I just wanted to share and let you know that I'm thinking of you and sending you hugs!