(((AbandonmentIssues))),

I am very sorry that your sister is not being more sympathetic towards you. But she is your "younger" sister and she has no idea what it feels like to be pregnant in the first place (it is a very vulnerable time for any woman) and she also is angry. Her reactions are more that because you are her older sister she wants to see you be stronger as an example. She is angry and wants to get rid of the source of pain, this guy. She wants you to just stand strong and dump him and not get emotional. But that is just because she is angry and cannot "fix" this problem for you.

Unfortunately I can relate to how you feel right now, and there is nothing wrong with you getting some TLC right now, you definitely deserve that. I cried a lot too when I went through my last few weeks of my pregnancy. I didn't have a place like this to turn to, I had myself pretty much and I was very lonely. And being pregnant alone is a lot of work, especially these next few weeks because the baby really starts growing and it is very demanding on the woman physically and emotionally as well.

But what I didn't know AbandonmentIssues is that the child inside me could hear me crying and once I learned that it made me wonder how that affected my daughter. So even though you are struggling and I am sure are feeling very emotional. Please, as best as you can, try to remember that your baby is listening and do your best to do whatever you can to remain calm.

Do NOT allow yourself to think "depression" or " ending yourself" or ANYTHING NEGETIVE right now. Yes, I know this is awful, but this is totally NOT your fault and right now your life has got to be about focusing on what is good for the baby and doing your best to try to put all the other concerns away until "after" this child is born.

Look, no matter how bad this seems right now, life has a way of working things out and opening up to new experiences that can be "good". Honestly?, if there is something wrong with this husband, and you DO break up? Then you will be free of "his" issues. There is nothing worse than being "stuck" with a man that is a Jeckle and Hide or "blames other for his own weaknesses".

Now I still feel that this young man is having serious "fear" issues. Men are designed so differently than women are. Their view on children is very different from a woman's view. All it takes is for someone to say, "well get used to your wife falling in love with the child and you only get left overs "if" she has energy". Sometimes men get very jealous of children because now they have to "share" the limelight and they don't like that. And sorry to say but your husband is VERY YOUNG AND IMATURE YET. He may have at first liked the idea but now is seeing this picture as a major trap and he doesn't really even know who "he" is yet never mind be responsible for supporting a family.

That stone cold look and his urgent need for you to "get out" that is extreme fear and a sense of being trapped. When men are scared/pressured/trapped/anxious they react differently then women, some men get VERY mean when they get scared. And your husband is "running" right now. And this facebook and all the women crap, that is just him trying to find some kind of "comfort" or "option" or "sense of being desired still" or " some kind of encouragement to keep running" or "something to ease his sense of guilt".

Like I mentioned my husband went out, got drunk, snorted cocaine and cheated on me because his reality was "he was scared and wanted to run too". Yes, it confused me too because he was good for a while until that 9th month and he got scared. He looks back now and he is very angry about how he was, he says right out that he was a stupid jerk.

I was with a lot of children today, 1,2,3,4,5 year olds. I wish you were there so you could see how cute these children were. How their eyes were wide with curiosity all their little personalities too. They were each unique pieces of art work, each one with different personalities too. And one little girl that was such a happy child. There were little red heads, blondes, brunettes, light skined, dark skinned, all different, yet each one amazing. And this is what you need to think about now, this amazing little person that YOU are giving life to. It is such a gift and adventure. This is what you need to really focus on right now.

All the other things, let them go right now, just focus on this new life. Do NOT let yourself fall into any kind despair right now, just take this one day at a time and tell yourself, it will just all work out somehow, right now, this, this little child is THE MOST IMPORTANT right now.

Open Eyes