Oh Heidu...don't ask me why but I just felt inside that this is what was going on with you. I have never sensed that you were truly comfortable with your situation. I know your decision didn't come easy and has taken it's toll on you. But you have to do what you feel is right for you now. Just take it one step at a time.

I don't know what part of the states you'd be coming back to, but if you want to PM me and let me know and it happens to be close to me, I'm sure my wife and I would be glad to give you a place to stay until you could get back on your feet. You'd even have a computer to use so you could stay in touch with the rest of the gang . Think it over and if you'd rather not, I'll certainly understand. I just hate to think about you being out there with nowhere to go.

((((((Big Hugs))))))
bp

"A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart."