I read your original account of your life events a couple days ago and it's stuck with me and I sense every despairing feeling with you and also bewilderment and shock and it's a nightmare to be shoved ruthlessly into the unknown like you have been....and it's definitely understandable

..I relate in many ways I won't put a number...to be extraordinarily upturned in such damaging ways where all the important things in our lives have been demolished by behaviour that just never suited us.

it's more than enough to destroy any loving soul and it's obvious your soul is such.

...thing is it's done and it's happened and it's going to become something you look back on as the 'life changing' event....your life changing event!

you will restore things...not as they were but as they will become and with new wisdom.

...it takes some real determination to overcome all the negative crap...bad impressions horrible identity assassinations from around you...

hell not long ago I was cool tennant in number three and next morning I'm gang tackled by police on the footpath out front...oops I had an episode and I still have them and they come and go and I need medication and I function ok and it's fine I know the shame and thats just a little event.

...you are a good person ...with a couple extra features....get to know them and you will be ok....it's hard I know