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Originally Posted by madisgram
here's a thought karebear...when you are needing to share about your life stuggles at a mtg. share how it makes you feel. relate this to your old drinking habits and stinkin' thinking. our reactions to life's problems is to numb our emotions instead of resolving conflict. it's an old habit to escape.
most importantly get to a meeting. the longer you stay away the harder it gets. excuses are not the real reasons. the longer you stay away the greater chance of relapse. turn yourself around and head the other way.
i'm so glad you posted. when you go to a meeting- i hope -you can listen for now. i'm sure you'll hear solutions to how you perceive your life problems and helpful stuff to give you the serenity you deserve. we just have to show up. a dear friend of mine used to say "this ain't no dress rehearsal!"  it puts things in a better perspective.
hope you' get to a meeting. don't quite understand why it works but it does. the serenity will follow. that i am sure. |
thanks Madisgram.. I appreciate your response. I know I should go to a meeting.. but I can't say that my defiant, grumpy self didn't pop up when I read your suggestion about meetings. Don't know why that happens as I know you're speaking the truth.
I just wish I had the desire to go back to meetings. I spent the last year forcing myself to go... thinking my mood will change and I will like meetings again. It didn't happen so I stopped going and thought I would give myself a little break.
I envy people that are drawn to meetings and look foward to going. I hear it from so many at the meetings.. how they just can't wait to get there. And then I feel empty inside because it's about the last place I want to be. Meetings can cause me a great deal of anxiety.
I will continue to pray every morning asking my higher power to guide me in the right direction, to do the next right thing and above all to to help me stay sober today.
I'm grateful for this forum.. it's keeping sobriety on my mind. I don't feel so all alone.
peace
kare