Hi

It's not good to say to yourself that you will ever amount to much. That is very self-defeating and will get you more depressed. Do you see a therapist? Often if we were abused as children we are afffected today by those experiences by turning to drugs, alcohol, gambling, violence and crime. Unless we find the reasons for how we are as adults we're destined to repeat that behaviour that was done to us as children. Awareness and courage are the keys to overcoming problems of the past.