Hi madisgram,
I stop in on this board occasionally because I know I belong here, but I am still in the denial stage or "I can make this work!" or poor, me, I got stuck with being bipolar, with having abusive parents who also abused substances, with dangerous behaviors, and on top of it all I am a substance abuser!
When I am here, I enjoy reading your posts because you are way beyond where I am now. Currently, I am trying to make myself think that I am not an alcoholic because I have no need to drink every day, and my drink of choice is wine, which everyone drinks. The problem, though, is that once I start drinking, I don't stop until whatever amount is around is gone. I drink alone because my friends know that I take meds that shouldn't mix with alcohol.
Anyway, I am working on it-hence, the occasional drop in to catch up on the posts.
Bluemountains