((((Big Mama)))) I can relate. We are so used to being in a constant state of hyper-awareness and stress (always on guard and waiting for the next shoe to drop) that when things are "calm" it is .... overwhelming and terrifying. We want to relax but there is that automatic instinct to not for fear of what might come next.

I have been working really hard on that with my T. My brain had been wired to constantly be on guard. She gave me relaxation and breathing excercises to do for just that reason. I just could not rest...even when things were "ok". I would panic because i wasnt having a panic!

Another thing T1 and I were working on - reminding myself that it was OK to relax and try to enjoy the quiet...she gave me an affirmation which she actually wrote down for me. I made copies and kept one with me and taped other copies in strategic places around my home. Also, that it was in her handwriting was comforting to me.

"I am safe and at peace". Just those few little words helped me a great deal.

I think others can explain it a lot better than I...I just wanted to be sure to reach out and let you know you are absolutely not alone in this and that I believe what you are experiencing is quite common for our Dx.

Hugs to you,
Rose