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Old Jul 12, 2012, 09:07 AM
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Originally Posted by BuggsBunny View Post
It sounds like you have been to hell and are trying to figure your way back. The first thing you need to do is get into that mental health court. Don't just let things steamroll over you. rgb11 made a good point with telling people. Try making amends with those you have hurt. Obviously you won't be able to do this with everyone, but your true friends will come back if they know what has really happened. Do some bp research and find an article you can print out or email them that explains the disease. Tell them this was the onset. apologize. None of that will be easy, of course, and with jail hanging over your head, you may find it hard to even function, but you Must take some control.

You don't say what two countries you are in trouble with, or your residence country, but is disability an option? It never pays much, but it will keep you from homeless, hopefully.

Bankruptcy is always an option, especially if you have no means of paying off the bills. I had to do it once, in the US, after a string of mania and credit bills so deep, I couldn't pay them off and still afford to eat on the money disability gave me. It's not my first choice, but it is an option.
Thanks, yes it is hard for me to function, all these problems scare me, and the criminal charges really scare me. I wake up gagging just about every morning, so worried about all of this. I never expected my life to be like this. Nobody will accept my apology, i tried. They all act like they are afraid of me now. I tried to apply for disability, it got denied.
It's so traumatizing, how this happened, and make me act like a totally different person and how it ruined my life. Thanks for your advice. I will look into the mental health court, i know one of the counties participate in it, but i was already told the other one doesnt.
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