So I have been doing a little online research and I think I have come up with a reason why my grief won't just go away... I know it takes a while but mine has been dwindling for way to long and the feelings are getting stronger instead of easing.
See my partner cheated on me, twice. She pretended that she was somebody she was not and it turns out for the whole six years we were together she lied about her past loves, her past life, everything...I was in love with someone who didn't exist. All of this has been so hard and she turned pretty nasty in the end and wouldn't let me take me stuff, told nasty lies about me and kept my dogs way from me. I am not blaming her for everything, I must have triggered all of this in her...anyway I found it hard to cope with all this so I went to therapy...My T was great at first, very supportive but then she wouldnt let me talk about my ex, insisting that we talk about other things. At first I let her thinking there must be some reason but then it was just rediculous because I couldn't tell anyone else about my ex as nobody knew about our relationship only my t. She kept saying that I wasn't depressed and that I should be moving on with it now, I couldn't understand why i couldnt let this go...why i was still and still am grieving. My t even refused to see me again for six whole monthsd because I got back with my ex only to be cheated on again.
Sorry for rambling on but I think I have this complicated grief. Has anyone else have any experience with it?