5 years ago tomorrow I lost an extremely important person in my life. My uncle passed away suddenly from a heart attack when i was 14. He'd been there since the minute i was brought home and we'd never spent more than a few days away from each other in my entire life. He was more of a father than anyone. I'm not blood related to my family but he never gave me any reason to think or feel otherwise. I never got to say goodbye and its still haunting me to this day. I'm 19 now and I look after his son like he's my own but I still can't bring myself to say i'm over his death because I know im not. Everyone else in my family seems to be getting over it, like its a normal day for them and I feel so alone in the fact that i miss him more than anything and it breaks me to even think of it. I can't cope on anniversaries especially this one, I don't know what to do with myself. Keeping 'busy' just doesn't seem like an option, it feels like an insult to him that i'm trying to block it out or something. I'm not coping well in the slightest.