Thanks - this all means a lot.
I know I'm never going I be what she was.
I'm just scared that I've become what she is now. Broken, weak, a 'victim', attention seeking...

I've definitely connected the way I feel to things that have happened before, but that's not the case now. Maybe I've not 'dealt' with it, but I'm no longer hanging onto it.
Does that make sense???

I'm going to the doctors to start the whole referral process again. It's been about a year since any contact with doctors/a mhs.

I've always only ever been offered cbt, which has been great, but it's never touched on my past. Just the here and now.

How do I go about something a bit more in depth? Is that available on the nhs???

Xx