I have been to hell and back! OMG! It still feels like yesterday. I was completely crazy after what I went thru! It is so hard to talk about tho. It's hard to share much cause it hurts bad. The drugs and murders and hiding from police was so bad. Now I won't touch another man with a 10-foot pole. I'm questioning God about why I had to live thru all of it. Why me? I have not been in any relationships for over 6 years. I'm terrified of people. I don't like people they are bad for me. I'm scared cause I haven't ever lived on my own in the real world, and I'm 32. Coming up next year I may have a chance to get an apartment of my own, but I'm as scared as hell I won't be able to support myself!!!! What should I do?