Yes, I believe that's what keeps me going - knowing that I'm not alone. In a way, it does interfere with how I feel. I almost grow upset, thinking I'll never able to experience something like this with another. Like I said, I wouldn't make someone do it if it made them uncomfortable and I truly think that will be difficult to find. I have no plans to stop or give up, however. I haven't dated in 6 years, because I get afraid about being too open, especially about this subject.

I definitely have control over any urges - I find these sort of fetishes to be non-sexual in nature for me personally. I feel better about being honest and to terms about this, but in the end I want so much more, but instead I'm constantly worrying. I know I'm not a freak. I guess I just need to be more active/involved and get out there in the world at the same time.