Hi ((((DD))) I am sorry. It's so hard to break up with someone and especially hard when they are also your best friend! You want to call them to tell them everything the "jerk" did so you will feel better...I can totally relate

Then to top it off, anxiety sends us running for the hills to safety. It also clouds our rational thinking, things gets distorted when we are panicked...it's hard to see the forest for the trees. And we are super hard on ourselves, doubt ourselves and are highly critical of our own decisions. It's all so confusing because we don't know WHY we ran for the hills.

I agree with Lynn that you should definitely give yourself some breathing room, please be gentle with yourself, and when you are feeling a little better, examine the pros and cons of the relationship. You broke up for a reason. What are those reasons? You needed to get away. Why?

Wth the recent Dx and change of meds, along with your upcoming T appointment, perhaps you can give yourself some time to just adjust, get settled and ponder your thoughts (review the pros/cons), and then make a decision about next steps.

In the meantime, honor your feelings regarding the break-up. Whatever they might be.