Hi purple, sorry you're having such worries and anxiety. May I gently suggest that since you have so many things you are working on, you need not hurry into getting married, especially since you are struggling with recovery from past relationships and trust issues. What's the rush? There's nothing wrong with taking care of yourself first. If he's the right one, he'll be there later.

Give ourself some credit,too. I know having suspicions is unpleasant and threatening to your emotions, but sometimes our instincts and intuition are valid. Why not take some time to figure out your feelings, and yes, definitely ask your t to work with you about these strong feelings that come over you.

All the best to you.