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Originally Posted by landskaperdan
Hi. I am Dan. I have been with my psychologist and psychiatrist for about 8 months now. I am Bipolar II. When treatment started we identified my type as rapid cycling and discovered I had been cycling for years! I have mixed cycling. I call it 'active depression' when it's on the low side and just damn frustrating and intolerable when it was on the high side.
I was just on Lamictal 100 mg. until we discovered that I was having psychotic symptoms as well. Then the Abilify started and landed at 7.5 mg.
Now I am close to stable... but not happy at all. In fact I am miserable. I wrote in to my pdoc the things I want to change about how I feel. I wrote that I am tired of feeling like I am always doing something wrong, like there is a problem with me just being me. That I was never sure about what I did and that I never felt part of anything. I wrote in about my high, constant and problematic anxiety that I can never shake.
He wrote back. He does not believe that I have BPD! (Borderline Personality Disorder) THANK YOU!!!
But he does believe that I have ADHD??? High stem??? Ugh.. I don't really know what that is. He says that could be the reason for the feelings I wrote above.
So I have to ask... is add/adhd more than just distractablility? Can it lead to feelings of severe magnitude and ruin someones life? What is it exactly?
For it to be the cause of what I am feeling, it would have to be more than the popularly advertised, "Look.... Squirell!" condition.
I apologize for knowing nothing about it or any offense my comments might have. I guess it would be like someone coming onto a Bipolar board asking if Bipolar was just happy/sad syndrome lol. I have encountered people saying that, "oh, i get happy and sad too, I must be bipolar" lol. There is so much more to it that people don't know. As there is with ADD.
I guess that's why I am posting here. Asking what else there is, because if it can make a person feel the way I am feeling, then my anger towards media and public awareness groups will be incredible for only telling one side of the story. At least with Bipolar people run scared knowing its a debilitating condition. There is less minimization as there is with ADD, assuming that my pdoc is correct. I see him on Sat. and he wants to start meds for it.
I am really unsure. could ADD mirror sympoms of both Bipolar AND BPD??
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When I went to my GP about anxiety attacks that were way out of character for me, he gave me a couple of generic Q/A test and said I scored high on the BP side. I did not think I was BP, but knew a psychiatrist was the best bet to find out for sure. My psychiatrist asked questions for about 10 minutes and suddenly looked at me and said "You are not Bi-Polar, you are ADD". I was shocked and asked how did nobody notice this in my prior 43 years of life??? I've been reading ever since then and it's like the books talk straight from my brain. I was never hyper, I was stable at my job, but the more I read the more I was convinced he was right. I responded well to my first Adderall and it was like taking a wet blanket off my brain. I felt Good, less grumpy, less tired, slept better on less sleep, worked better... ADD is still relatively new and many doctors are not expert enough to recognize it in adults.
There are many similar symptoms between ADD and BPD, I admit I don't know that much about BPD, but I thought the periods of up and down were over weeks or months at a time. ADD has similar up and down periods, but these swings can be during the same day.
Keep reading... If it is ADD, you could know within the first 30 minutes after taking your first Adderal. My life changed afterwards for the better. Keep us posted
