OH..Abby..this is horrible..beyond words...you do need to take care of yourself..Have you called a Rape crisis line????..I am going to put a trigger icon up to my reply because I am a rape survivor as well when I was 25 and know what this can do to other survivors ..does your T have a phone number you can reach him at when emergencies arise? This is a horrible issue to have to work thru alone..I hope for you to contact at the very least a Rape Crisis worker if you cant get your T on the phone ASAP...you may be in shock..you need to have someone with you dear Abby..know that you are not alone in this...but you need to contact someone real world as soon as you can..I am so sorry..