Abby, I'm so sorry to read what's happened to you. Please visit this website:

http://www.rainn.org/what-should-i-do/index.html

Just click the link and give them a call at the 800#. It won't hurt to talk with someone and will more than likely help a whole lot. You did nothing wrong and they can help you to get the help that you need.

Please consider this and know that you did nothing wrong. We're here. Don't hesitate to PM.

KD