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Originally Posted by ponder1973
This is classic sex addiction. You feel compelled, you can't go without for very long. You get angry and agitated without it.
Sexaholics Anonymous is free and it works. Look them up online and get contact info for people in your area. If there isn't a local group, you may be able to start one or just get phone numbers for other members to call and talk to. There are phone meetings as well. Get the SA white book and read through it. Then get the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book / Blue Book and read and put into practice the steps.
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Its definitely sex addiction, I've heard its similar to heroin addiction which seems overwhelming to overcome. I'm guessing there is no easy free card to ride this at once...I'll definitely try SA white book and all you've suggested.
The fact that I see everything within the lens of sex is scary. No logic, no rational, and no safety behind it. The fact that I can easily throw away my health, life, and morality for sex is wrong. The fact that I'm not strong enough is debilitating.
There's gotta be a solution... if not soon I don't know where this will take me, I just wish I can still keep my sanity. One small step to a life a despair and regret is easy to obtain when your this low. I just wish I didn't have all the responsibilities associated with life, so that I can focus on my problem with full attention and time.
It almost feels like groundhog day, I keep repeating the same actions with the same results. I try and stop myself, get pulled back into addiction, regret what I've done, and try to "cure" myself yet again. Rinse and repeat and you got the definition of how its been for the last years. Everyday, every week, every month, and every year has been the same. The only roadblock is this response my body produces as a result of not going back. Increase heart rate, insomnia, unable to concentrate, shallow breath, agitation, and etc. I know its mental, I just wish I could control it better.