Today has been rough for me.
I wanted to thank you guys for not telling me to run away from her.

When we were dating she didn't cheat (that I know of).
She was just very difficult to get along with.

Some things I don't want to admit....
When we were young, and she broke up, she was hanging with this guy. Shortly after we broke up, she was dating him. She told me stories about him. He allegedly would lock her in her room. At one point she was pregnant, and he paid a doctor to hold her down and abort the baby. I find that hard to believe.

When she was married she talked about divorce. She said she had always thought about divorcing. She was married for 12 years. She would secretly meet me during her marriage. I'm so ashamed of that. But she didn't have any horror stories. She was just unhappy. Recently she started saying he cheated on her repeatedly.

I love her.
That's what's bugging me the most. Despite all that she has done to me, she really is trying.
I don't know whether to pursue this anymore, or let it go.