i don't SI

i have 2, maybe 3 times

over 2 years ago

keys n razor blades

blades when i was too chicken to slash my wrists

yet the other night

i got so hysterically upset and angry i got some scissors, i have cuts over my legs and down one arm and bruises too

i have been taking celexa and that night i drank a lot of wine

i cant believe i did it and hate myself for it SI is not my thing (tho i understand it a bit) and i wear reasonably hot clothes and bikinis so i cant let anyone see this

ARRRRGHHHH i know i am pretty lame compared to some of u but i NEVER want to do this again ... how do i make sure of that ...