black cat you said rather than focusing on wanting to drink-consider what you have accomplished-11 days clean and sober! in early sobriety we can fall back rather than look forward but we don't have to. clearly you want to rid yourself of the dismal life of abusing drugs and alcohol or you would not have 11 days. just focus on "one day at a time, one minute, one hour and you can do this.
do you attend a 12 step program like AA? if not i'd give it a go. many of us do that. the group of people are so supportive plus in the rooms you will find HOPE that you can stay sober. you will learn how others have coped in early sobriety. you will gain new friends that want sobriety or the wisdom of others who now live sober.
as for your mom-roadie made a good point tell your mom how you feel uncomfortable being around booze. surely she would rather see you overcome drinking and drugs? another suggestion-leave the room if liquor is around. that is a trigger for us. take a nice walk. or do what i was told- sing a song. i know that sounds weird but while singing you find you cannot think about booze at the same time. the brain is busy with the lyrics not the alcohol.
please keep posting. we can support your efforts too.