With my allergies acting up, so is my mental health... im feeling funny right now, feel like something is tryinh to pull me back...

T and pdoc believe my seizure was a result of my brother moving back, that some parts just couldnt handle it (as it happened the day he was supposed to arrive among other things) but any time i feel lile im being pulled back, i become afraid. I worry it will be a seizure again. Ive had some co con moments and some mild blackouts since but it always worries me its going to turn into a seizufe.

T says to just let it happen. I cant get through all of this if im always fighting it... but im 100% alone for the next 8.5 hours. I can feel the pull, i can feel whatever it is trying to bring me in... im just terrified because im alone of what may happen so im fighting it right now... he says i should let it happen but im afraid...